I can hear some of you say ‘what’s the fuss about?’ Or perhaps you may be saying ‘you’ll get over it soon enough’. Well at the moment I am writing this blog just after having observed that one white hair again on my head!
I had noticed it a couple of months back and I stood in front of the mirror literally analyzing this white hair. Since then I coloured my hair, but today I spotted it again. It just won’t go away will it? And yet again I stood in front of the mirror picking at it.
Then I wondered – is it normal to do this? I can’t quite explain myself but it seems like a ‘big thing’. Like a transition from one phase of my life to the other. And I question myself whether this is actually really happening!
I still feel young and somehow this white hair is not in sync with how I feel. I am going to be 40 this year and I often catch myself saying this to so many people – in truth I am 39 still but these days I really do emphasise that I am going to be 40 this year. It is like I am trying to prove a point of some sort – feels like I am telling the world ‘look I have got to the magic 40 – be impressed!’ I am actually smiling whilst I write this because as I am putting pen to paper (actually typing), I am realising more and more that it is really affecting me.
I feel a sense of achievement but there is also that sense of sadness and nostalgia. Well the consolation is that I can safely say that I will look back on my 30’s with great satisfaction and happiness – it is the decade where I achieved a lot in my career and most importantly I became a mum.
So now it is about looking ahead and looking forward to the 40’s and as my one white hair becomes two then three and then many more, I pray that I will look back at my 40’s with equal happiness and sense of fulfilment. I hope some of you can relate to this and I am not alone!
On my to do list for tomorrow is to give my hairdresser a call and get that colour done – yet I know I will be staring in the mirror in no time and it will come back to remind me that this year is the year I will wave good bye to my 30’s.
Dr. Roselyn Borg Knight LL.D., LLM, has been practicing law for the past 16 years. In 2006, she moved to the UK where she set up a boutique law firm, specializing in employment law. She served as a Gender Equality Expert reporting directly to the EU Commission for three years and in 2011 she set up Twenty-one Law in Malta to provide employment law advice to both employers and employees. Dr Borg Knight also develops and delivers employment training programs locally.
